what a precious thing we've lost

1. flaming pumpkin head
2. teenagers with typewriters
3. evidence taken from a crime scene
4. phone call from mexico
5. indoor smoking
6. quarries in spain
7. stars and hearts (each fake)
8. 5 different bike shops
9. N/R 4,5,6
10. El Paso
11. plastic bullets
12. parabolas and mirrors and sinking sinking feelings
13. A clock with only one hand
14. Faking epilepsy
15. exploded discs
16. 410 breaths before you lose count
17. overhearing ugly things
18. ignoring protocol
19. breathing air that's never been breathed before
20. The smell of something 10 years old
21. optimism
22. sea glass
23. birthdays ignored (not forgotten)
24. lame lame lame
25. looking in three places at once
26. an old friend returning to CT
27. Having changed (and changed back)
28. The game I play with the radiator and falling asleep before it turns on
29. Not having won that game in a long time
30. A list of 100 things to do with a returned gift
31. leaving things behind to save them from the rain
32. changes in career plans
33. one year anniversaries
34. scars on shins
35. flake white pumpkin seed
36. flash photos in a museum
37. hatemail
38. arhythmia medication
39. medic alert bracelet
40. walk-in clinic
41. fake thanksgiving
42. lead asbestos dust
43. snow flurries
44. selling things for boyscouts
45. what the ocean used to be
46. velvet ropes in the back of a pick-up truck
47. big gifts you can't reciprocate
48. spooky
49. the analog sunset made literally...figuratively
50. wondering if jillian will read this
51. wondering if it will make sense to her
52. knowing that it won't have to
53. ghost to ghost
54. with a flaming pumpkin head